Torn

I feel torn lately between the person I want to be and the person I am. I want to go to graduate school, but the time scares me. I feel like almost everything I do lately is for someone else and yet I am torn when it comes to doing something for myself knowing it will take time away from the kids and husband.

I think that all soon to be moms should go through counseling so that they are better equipped to deal with the transformation that takes place when you become a mom. Forget the birthing classes and take a mental health class. Maybe just a class to help you organize your own life and make sure that you know to take time just for yourself even when you have a baby in arms and a husband in need of attention.

I have said it before but it always holds true, a happy mama is a better mama.

Now back to cooking dinner, doing some laundry, and getting the kids ready for school tomorrow.

Hope floats

I watched the Hope for Haiti Now telethon last night with Cat. It was a little tough to watch but it was a way for her and I to talk about the earthquake and the problems that their country is facing. She went to bed thinking up ways that she could help. This morning she told me that she took the change out of her piggy bank and wanted to donate it. Seeing her wanting to make some sort of difference makes me feel a little bit hopeful for the future.