Sunday, July 23, 2006

My girls

There is one thing that I have missed more than anything else while I have been laid up in bed and that is spending time with my girls. They come to visit me but being little girls they don't have much patience to just hang out with Mama and talk. Cat and I have our cuddle time at night where we read stories and she tells me about her day. But Aly doesn't have the patience for that, sure she will sit with me and we will read books like "Cleo & Casper" and "Don't Let the Pigeon Drive the Bus" (she just loves to say "No Pigeon", plus Mo Willems is great). But once we are done reading she gives a quick hug and a few kisses and with a "nigh-nigh mama" she is off to bed. They love seeing me and will visit a few times a day to give little hugs and kisses and then it is off to play.

Then there is the heat, in our non-air conditioned house the only cool places are our bedroom (window AC) or our basement where the play room is, but the basement has 11 steep stairs leading down to it. So for right now I am stuck up here and they are down there.

I miss my girls so much. I miss giving them baths and watching them giggle as they splash each other and put on little soap beards. I miss cuddling up with Aly at night, rubbing her head and singing her lullabies. I miss dancing, marching, skipping, around the basement as we listen to Dan Zanes. I just miss them, everything they are, these two joyous creatures who make my world go round.

I love my husband and am glad that after the kids go to bed he comes and hangs out with me, we watch TV, he tells me what he and kids did, and I reconnect with the family. I know that this is only temporary, I mean hopefully I will at least be crutching around next week. But it is more than just being stuck in bed, your life slows down, you get isolated from life. It is hard to not get a little depressed. But when I do get down, like today, I try to remember the good stuff. I will get better, this is only temporary, and I have a great family who want me to get better even more than I do.

9 comments:

Lynn said...

Hugs from a mama you don't know. :) I've BTDT, being in bed or just crippled up, in fact, I am right now (it's a chronic thing). It's hard to stay in family life like that. Get better soon.

Damselfly said...

I love Mo Willems' pigeon books! And I hope your recovery time goes by more quickly -- I know it's hard to be still when you want to do stuff.

nonlineargirl said...

Being immobilized is crap, but it sounds like it has had the benefit of making you really appreciate the time you normally get to spend with the girls.

valiens said...

I was on bedrest for a month with #3, and we homeschool! I missed the routines so much because that's when I get to breathe the kids. Does that make sense?

Baby's a month old now and things are slowly returning to normal. This too shall pass! Blogging it does help. And a friend suggested to me that I embrace the time to myself. Sometimes I managed to do so!

Hang in there!

Fidget said...

staying in bed is HARD, it always sounds like a nice luxury until you are forced to be there. I hope you heal quickly!

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DeeJay said...

I miss reading to my kids. Guess I could always read to the dogs, but I'm guessing they will just fall back asleep before it's all over with.

Get well soon!

honey said...

ugh, when I was bedridden for the last two weeks of my first pregnancy, I thought I was going to lose my mind...

I'm sorry this is so hard but like you said before, you won't get many more opportunities to take it easy and be waited on hand-and-foot. When you're commuting again we'll have to hook up for lunch, I went by there on the MAX today and thought of you.

Heal ankle, HEAL!!!

Andrew said...

Good luck. Hopefully looking forward to hanging with your children will pull you through the hobbling around phase more quickly!

To Love, Honor and Dismay

stefanierj said...

I hope Mo Willems helped ease the mind-crushing boredom of being laid up. Maybe you and he could co-write one calld Don't et the Pigeon Break an Ankle? :)